It's rather sad seeing this blog being left alone in a corner. The last activity here was, what? 5 months ago? Mind you. That's the tiny chatbox. Not even an actual post up here. What can I say? To be honest, nothing much.

Let's do something interesting. Let's take a little stroll down memory lane. Let's go a little deep down to our past. Not a Nazi Styled Propaganda past. But the cold hard truth between us (At least from my perspective, if you want to share yours. Go ahead. it'll be interesting to read anyway.)

Some of us met ages before the rest of us even know each other exist. So it would be stupid for me to say anything or tell any stories about that. So let's head a little further in the future. How it all begins! There and on, you can actually catch a glimpse of how it's going to end. I met Fai in 1B4 all those years ago. We weren't even all that close then. Some how we even manage to get in a fight. Meh, Fai my bro, I doubt such a fight would ever happen between us again. For one thing, I doubt I'm strong enough to hold you down heh.

Back to my lamentations. We were just classmate then, and not people that I'd gladly give up my left ball if that's the price to keep em alive and well. Let's move on a little, form 2 I must say, is where some of the rest start filling in the pictures. Shao Yong and Wei Yang gets thrown more actively into the mix I would say. While me and Fai, hell. We barely see each other during recess. See how close we were then? YOU SEE IT? Okay I think you do. Move along.

Not sure if my memories failing. It's either that year or the next, but either way it happened. Wei Yang there going emo in the corner on our saturday's LPS activities. Anyone else remember those times? Anyone else that say "I'm going to go find him."? Maybe, maybe not. One thing's for certain, I was alone when I walked out the library to seek out my friend. As often he was THE asshole around us, I still give plenty of damn about him. After all, without him, alot of us would look like real assholes.

Bull shit aside though, I wondered then, why was I the only one that decide to go find him? Are the others willing to let one friend disappear that way just because our seniors then ask us to stay and do our work? Is this how things would be like in the future, we give up our friends for work, studies or other things? I prayed it wasn't. Whether my prayers have come true? You tell me.

My form 2 life has been rather, exciting I must say. or at least exciting to me. I suppose looking back, I was in the only relationship I ever find difficult to let go and move on, it was a relationship that changed me rather severely. Still, no point being bitter about how things turn out. I still remember I got into a rather nasty fight with someone (I feel rather bad I can't remember his name, after all I did puch him in the face. If some how he ever stumbles on this blog - I know not how, my apologies. I shouldn't have hit you first I spose).

Oh yeah. I musn't forget. Wei Xiang was there, I can see he was worried, more worried than I am to be exact. But still he stuck on with me till the end (or at least as far as they allowed him to). Did I ever thank you properly for that mate?Either way, Thank you for the times you stood beside me Xiang, I'll remember it for as long as I live. I'm sorry on how I chose to act in the later years when we were leaders in LPS. You have your choices, some which I agree with, and some as you know I detest and fought with everything I can to prevent.

Now if you allow me (which I don't think you would given the choice). Before I begin, I apologize if this re-opens some old wound you have. You were with Melanie then. You were happy. Very happy. All the times I hang out with you on tuesdays. I can see you shining in joy (Yes this sounds gay). It's good to see you that way. I haven't get to see you smiling that way in years. Did she really took away all your smiles and charm? You turned into a gloomy spectre after that. I wonder, which is worse? You being a gloomy spectre then? or me stop caring about everything?

-Side note : Fun times with you Sao wen. The bloody stupid shit we talked about with Ah fatt is awesome. Apart from the fact when you two kept poking fun at me while I stare blankly at Su Ping. That wasn't funny. SERIOUSLY. It wasn't. Okay well maybe it is a little.

Rest of form 2 pass by rather peacefully, oh yeah we also went Penang together. Now here's when the fun all begins (Or for most people, the part where shit hits the fan.) Form 3. I suppose this is where we can actually consider ourselves getting close together. Me, Fai and Chen Kiat is reunited in form 3. Let me side track a little here. I felt like crap when I first saw the front part of the name list. Lotsa people I dislike. I have to admit, a warm sensation start to spread within me when I saw the name Ng Chen Kiat, followed by Wong Kah fai a little further down.

Now back to my story! Wei Xiang, Wei Yang, Shao Yong were thrown in the same class (I left out a few individuals which faded away long before now.). Jiunn Heng was in A4 or something or was it A3. Either way. Fuck Heng. His not needed for this part of the story. With the relaxing life we had in form 3, I still remember all the fun times where me, Fai and Kiat (Here on referred to as we until I say so) crashed at 3A5 to enjoy ourselves. It's rather difficult to write a paragraph for everything so I'll just use point form.

1. We taped Xiang's and Shao Yong's bag under their table with some tape we found. Xiang's bottle learnt how to climb on to a fan.
2. Yu Ling is lovely.
3. We laughed epicly when we knew Xiang and Yang was the KT and PKT.
4. We laughed about alot of crazy shits.
5. Guo Yaw blew a power plug. We did the same shortly after.
6. Fai and Kiat has a nice sleeping corner in 3B5.
7. Pn Fong attempted to prod me awake and failed.
8. Yu Ling is very lovely.
9. I was dumped. I stop giving a rat fart about things. Not to mention drink alot.
10. We sang a very nice birthday song for Jiunn Heng

That's pretty much the gist of things. Now on to some more important things that happened that year. Wei Xiang's looks a little tortured being so close to Mel (At least for some time), but I wasn't there to see everything, and to be honest, I din't really care. So let's move on to my part, and screw Xiang. I can't remember what actually happened. I just know we ended up getting our arses whooped by Mr Wee. We got back to class, Fai's in one of his legendary temper and was about to whoop my ass again. Luckily, or unluckily, Kiat was there to stop him. If fai were to kick my ass then, I thoroughly deserved it. He shouted at me, alot of vulgarities were used. I just sat there like a brick, until he grabbed me and shoved me.

I had a good long time to think about what he said, and how I've been for the last few months. I'll be lying to you if I say that turned me around and stop me from thinking about my (at that point) past relationship (Yes, singular). But it cleared my head a little. I'm pretty sure I thanked you for that Fai. But hell. Won't kill to thank you again eh? Thanks bro.

Alright back to general things that affected all of us rather than just me. Xiang got to kumpulan Buku in LPS along with Ying Yang(did I get this right bro?), and both are on fast track to success. I get chucked to data (Which I din't really mind). Wei yang? where did you end up at again - sorry I can't remember, Seriously I can't. Jiunn Heng got what? Nilam or some thing lame sounding. Guo Dong was in Majalah or something, Ai Hui, I don't know, being a shark or something. Shao Yong, I can't remember, neither can I remember Kent's.

To make things neat and tidy, Xiang starts to get serious, I continue jerking around, Yang, I think he sulked a little, then he continue jerking around. Jiunn Heng, still doesn't really appear that often, shark is near non-existant. Guo Dong, still as usual ( no offence bro , we din't really hang out all that much ). Shao yong continue being Shao Yong (Dude your freaking boring man. Don't say your sorry, it's too freaking late. It's the past.) Kent, well your near non-existant then, apart from the time I punched what-his-name-2. I don't get what you were apologizing for then. I still don't really. Fai was smitten by Chai Yee (I'm not leaving that shit out bro. Her birthday is in a few days if I remember correctly)

One thing I must point out about that year. Most of us changed alot that year. It's also the time we usually refer to when we say "Good Ol' times". To be brutally honest, that should have been the beginning of our real tight friendship. If things were all that smoooth and happy, we would be refering it as "The rocky time when we first got together". Not the "Good Ol' Times". Does this give you enough hint on how sad our friendship is (in some ways)? Oh yes, I musn't forget. I will say this again as I have said it that year. Screw you Xiang you knew such a pretty prefect and you never bothered informing me? After all this time we knew each other , you never thought of introducing her to me?!

Form 4, Fucking hell. It would have been epic. Looking back right now, I demand the right to call some people idiot. I shall start with the listings. First idiot, Wei Yang. Second idiot, Shao Yong. Why I call you two idiots? Look at what course your in. First idiot. You took Bio for what again? And what are you doing now? 2nd idiot, Shao Yong, what crap did you say about doing pharmacy or what shit again way long time ago? What are you doing now? YOU KNOW HOW EPIC IT WOULD HAVE BEEN?!!? ALL OF US SAME CLASS?!?!?! EVEN MR HO FELT THE AWESOMENESS DUDE!!!

Any how, fun times. Me and Fai start drifting away a little again cause I was caught up with stuff in LPS. But Me, Xiang, Heng, Yang, Ying Yang and who else more? I can't remember again. It's 12. fucking 45AM. Gimme a break. We had a good run then, we can still see em if we go back CHS now. So be fucking proud you dick heads! BE PROUD! And Wen Zhen is fun to hang out with. Overnighting Xiang's place is horrifying and amusing at the same time. Archive Room is good to sleep in. CHS history can be interesting when your the one digging for it.

Other than that, Xiang was made president, after a little drama, I was made Head of Multimedia (I still wonder, they would rather give someone who don't give a crap?). Jiunn Heng and Ying Yang, the unlike duo that went to secretary. Xiang, you changed a lot after taking over the helm. Was it the responsibility? I suppose so. I must say, if that's what made you who you are now. I'm glad you were only stuck with it for 2 years. Was it the year we forced to go the freaking Melacca trip? That was a real fucked up shit. Only thing on my mind the whole time. "Dude what the fuck? What did I do?!?! Why is her hand in mine?! What the frack!?" Wasted trip mind you.

A lot more stuff happened that year. It was an interesting and eventful year. But I'm getting tired, and going in details of all those little things are unnecessary for what I'm doing. Are you wondering what I'm trying to do here? or have you guessed?

Moving along. Form 5. Another fun year. I must say I looked forward to the post SPM period where I believed things would go more enjoyable. I was wrong, it was only enjoyable for a rather short period of time. Why? I'll leave it to you why. Tuition with Ramesh is fun though. Lot's of things happened than, some giving a hint on how would we be like in the future. You think about it. I don't wanna go in details. I'm lazy. so piss off. Sorry if I left out the main character of the year, Guo Dong. Sorry bro. but those details, Ewwwww! She's so young dude! I'm just fucking around with ya. You can do a post on those stuff if you want, and give us a view into your mind and feelings then.

So let's go post form 5 shall I? Shit blew up all over the place. Let's start with something general. Our friendships are falling apart. True we're seperated by distance. Me, Heng, Xiang, Shao Yong, Ying Yang and Guo Dong at Taylors. Wei Yang at HELP. Shark at Sunway. Fai at KDU, Sao Wen on another planet. But don't tell me your going to use that as a reason why we start to fall apart.

Me and Fai are so far away, yet we still find time to hang out once every fortnight or once every week if we can do it. Don't tell me transportation is the issue. I went there all the time, how often do you see Fai coming over. Yes I'm supposed to sound accusing like you were all assholes that ditched their friends. Cause that's what you were doing for most part. Some of us have a good reason, while the others are just throwing up smokescreen. I won't go in details, my post today isn't to get into an arguement with anyone. Nor is it to make you feel guilty or feel bad (The last time I pulled something like this, it was meant to make you feel bad.)

Funnily enough, Ying Yang who's rather distant from the rest of us in High School, was actually hanging out with us way more often than usual. Meh bro. It's good to have you around more often. Good laughs. Not to mention awesome randomness. After my post on 17th September 2008, I'm sure most of you had rather negative things to say about me. I expected most of them. I expected some of you to think I've gone emo after Kent went UK since his like my gaming buddy and all. While I expected some others to raise defence for others, and say my accusations are unjust.

but the truth is, some of you stop hanging out all together. Be honest to yourself now. When I mean hang out. I mean all of us going out together. If I were not there to hint here and there to go out. If Wei Yang wasn't asking anyone out for movies/dinner/etc. Would we still be going out together if I did not do that? Count the times we've gone out after college started? Count the time we've gone out together this year. Tell me. How many? More than 10 in almost 2 years? Or was it less?

It gave the desired effect for some time. We were starting to hang out again. For a short while (Yes, for a short while) Everyone was making an effort to get together again. It's so much easier to get people out for a drink or a chat. Though it's still a chore getting Wei Xiang for a movie. I doubt that would ever change (I doubt it'll change until Xiang has a personal theatre in his own house). I have to admit I was optimistic then, I thought things would be going uphill again.

Sadly, it was just like a freaking dose of stimulant. It worked for a few months and kapoot. We're back to square 2 (We're a little better than square 1). True, it was easier to get people out for dinner and casual hangouts now. But our friendship is as good as dead. Now I'll tell you why I even bothered typing this whole long winded blog post.

If you haven't notice what I've been hinting throughout the whole bloody post. We're paddling(Not drifting) apart. If this goes on few more years from now, most of us would probably just sell out each other for money. After all, some of our past choices and decision hinted at that.

We call each other friends, we call each other brothers. Over time, we lose the fragile lines connecting us. That is of course, expected in every friendship. The problem starts, when most of us don't bother building new lines to connect us together again. We just let it rot away. Everytime we go out, it's always the same, either we talk crap, or we talk about the good old times. Are we ever going to have new times? Or are we just going to talk about good ol' times and craps everytime we go out? Do you really want those to be the last 2 lines holding us together?

Which party would you put yourself under? Those that's struggling to rebuild the lines? Or those watching them rot away?

10 years from now when we're all out working. Do you want to meet up once a year to greet each other, chat over superficial stuffs like politics and good vacation spots for a few hours, and talk about the good ol' times? or would you rather have the rest of us on speed dial so you could call us out for a drink and tell us about this hot chick at your workplace (chatting bout hot girl is not superficial, it's about the survival of human race so shut up). Right now, I'm pretty sure we're leaning toward the former. Would you take thet effort to lead it to the latter?

Everyone's old enough to decide for ourselves. You've read how things are in the years we've known each other. Now, I just wish for you to ask yourself this. "Am I worth the effort?". "Is everyone else worth the effort?". Be honest. We've known each other long enough to sense an outright lie from each other(at least for most).

Mind you this is going to be lame and I don't usually do this. But I'll give my answer here. hide the text however you like. Take a guess on what each other's answers would be before reading. How far is it from what you expected (or if it's what you expect, awesome). Also, I suppose you can leave what you want to say.

Meh. Some of us were never that close. While the rest of us, are as tight as pubic hairs. You guys are the only ones that I call friends and not acquintance. Without any of you, I probably won't be who I am today. I'd really hate to see all this goes down the drain. I can't be building new lines if you're not recieving. I can't ask you to play a game together or go do something together if you say no.

I know I left out alot of important events and details in my post. It may look as though I was pinpointing just several characters. Honestly, I intended to have a little story one everyone. but the fact is, look at the lenght of this freaking post. It would be double the lenght if I do one on everyone.

If I left out any important facts OPPSIES. I'm tired. It's 1.32am.

P.S. I really do hope everyone would post a blog post, on their own perspective over the years. I know it seems childish and in some cases pointless. Who know's, maybe it'll inspire us to a new start, and as a wise man (actually it was Anakin Skywalker in my dream) once told me you don't have the right to complain if you gave up before fighting.

Here is the thing...

We have decided to go to Penang on the 21st of December *until which day still not confirmed, but most likely 3 days 2 nights*
I need to noe exactly who is going...
And also im waiting for our Sao Wen to get his friend's apartment for us..*Much thank you dude*

If we have only 12 ppl going then we will take a van there... which is RM130 per person for transport *for all three days*

If we have more than 12 ppl going... I will take a few of u with me and we take aeroline from 1U to Penang... but subject to availability...

And if u guys wan alcohol... We need Fai's help if his bro is going to langkawi before our trip...

I will meet up with our 'Ah Gor' to look at the van... just to make sure that it will be comfortable for 12 ppl for long distance...

I need confirmation as soon as i get an update from Sao Wen....

Mmm.. The bitter sweet taste of finishing an Exam. It feels good. Finally free time to contemplate all the little things which cross my mind throughout AS period. The good ol' times with everyone back in secondary school while we can laze around alot thanks to short classes (not to mention skipping classes for tuition heh). Oh the innocence and trust we hold for each other then.

I wonder when did all that change? Perhaps the times where we realize our best friends aren't the people we thought they were? or the times we realize how fragile the threads of friendships are. Still, that's part of life, things changes people changes, and everyone of us change along with it.

Oh I remember the days where I trusted everyone completely. The times where I never prepare any backup plans for myself and how much I believed in my friends. It all ended when I realize how some of us does not treat everyone equally either conciously or unconciously. I wonder, how would our friendship remain if that continues?

Even when two people are left alive in the world, they would still represent the opposing factions. I guess that line is pretty much true. Even among us, we soon divided into factions due to difference in our judgement. Though we eventually submit to each other, the scar remains for all to see. Friends may turn to foe in a blink of an eye.

Ah, but through all that, still here we remain and here we stand proudly side by side againts all odds. A mixture of variety of individuals, each with a distinct personality. From the devious to the honest, from a knight in shinny armor to a necromancer messing with a zombie, we still stand together and proud of who and what we are. Ass-A-Nation.

P.s. Wei Xiang sounds like his realising his boyhood -.-;;. I was just bored btw, take no special notes of anything I say =P. Btw interesting question which i just thought when Kah Fai asked for a quote to tattoo on his back. I know what's tit, but what the hell is tat?...

LOL..this is not route map for release of new tech stuff *although it sounds like it*

Okay anyway... As for most of us... our FINAL SHOWDOWN is ending soon...
In fact DOBBY & Shao Yong is DAMN FREE NOW !!!!!!!!*(&(^*(
Lets plan for some trips/outing etc to mark an end for year 2008

Dates to WATCH OUT...
1. 21/11/2008 - 22/11/2008 ---- makan dinner or go out wtv..suggested place Plannet888 near Menara Merais..opposite some Ferrari Showroom
2. 23/11/2008 --- celebrate Fai's b'day?? WHERE?? suggestion pls

3. 14/12/2008 - 31/12/2008 ---- Xmas countdown...new year day countdown...
Trip to anywhere???? *not sure wheter we can book now*
But its also..suggestion pls...

The rest of the days.. lepak..sleep..RA3 multiplayer blabla LOLL.........

pls give confirmation/suggestion or anything for 21st nov or 22nd nov...

What if we're stuck in the middle-ages and and all or most of us have blue blood. I wonder what title would we each have heh.

I suppose it safe to assume to put
Wei Xiang as King of the sausage fest land

I wonder what would the rest go under. I'll take the title Duke if his majesty permits =P

It seems I've spend too much time playing S.T.A.L.K.E.R Clear Sky for the holiday. Everytime I close my eyes I see a guy in Gas Mask and anti radiation suit telling me "Get out of here Stalker."





Well, today I shall dive into another great mystery of AAN. Do Wei Yang have an enourmous porn collection. Treacherous journey ahead. Going head first into his room his highly inadvisible. There are plenty of sperm fence set up around the incapacious room. Switch on any UV light in 10 metre radius and you'll scream like a little girl and pass out (If not claimed by death that is)





But, I have some trick up my sleeve *hugs flamethrower* and I manage to bypass the securities and uncover another secret which drives our curiosity! Sadly, I was unable to obtain any screenshots. Worry not though, he definitely have less pornography stocked up in his computer =3. Who's your daddy bitch.


You little girls may now bow down to me and call me the man! P.s. for anyone that wish to have part of the collection kindly line-up orderly. Any disorder and indecent behaviour would result in your termination ;)

Everyday as we grow, AAN grows in tandem with us.
We may be posed with different challenges that only each of ourselves may understand.
And sometimes words do not tell things we want to say.
For these challenges may sometimes be ineffable...

Yet, we have one another!

Yes. Things are different from before. We may be heading off in different directions. But that does not mean we have to be together, to be together. Different experiences should make us value our friendship, our brother(and sister)hood more than ever. For AAN will always be a refuge to the needy.

AAN had good times. "Good" is so much of an understatement. WE ROCKED!!!
But more importantly, we struggled and made it through harsh times, too.
It is the collaboration of both "good" and "bad" that made things flourish.
Things were great when we had fun, but it is through bad times where we grow.
We are very different individuals, and of course in whatever scenario, arguments and disagreement may spark. But we compromise. We give in. We forgive.

Just like a cake, split into equal portions for all. Sometimes one does not get the chocolate icing which happened to land on only one of the slices. The latter has 2 options. He may fret and sulk. Or instead, he could share the happiness of that other lucky fella.

It's all perspective.

As Mr. William once said: "Unity is not in uniformity, but in diversity."

There are many different perceptions on the word 'perfection'. To me, perfection manifests itself within imperfection.

AAN is perfect.